I feel absolutely defeated, I can't even put to words my despair and hopelessness. I was hoping with every ounce in me that David would be able to go to a medical school this year, but no luck, (so far). A.T. Still started on Monday,so that one is OUT, and Touro University starts on the 3rd, and as of now NO ONE has dropped their seat. Bummer.
So now what? Find jobs. Find a way. Find a prayer that will be answered that both of these things will happen, soon. I just really want to curl up into a ball and die. You might think it's dramatic, but think..... when is the last time you wanted something so bad you would do anything for it, then think of that opportunity passing you by without a second glance. That is where I am right now.
{I know we will be going to medical school the next year, I just more than anything wanted this to happen for David. He has worked SO HARD for it, completing 4 years of college in 2.5 so that he wouldn't have to take a year off. I love him so much and I hope he knows that no matter what, he is AMAZING to me and our little family. Love you beez!}
Birthday Cheer
10 years ago
11 comments:
well thats a bummer, sorry it isnt working out better for you, i guess thats the way the chips fall sometimes.
AHH, Barb I want to cry for you cause I know exactly what you mean. Disappointment sucks!! I can tell you "this too shall pass" however, I know that doesn't help. But I do know that YOU have always made the best out of whatever predicament your family is put in. Wish I was there to give you a hug. Miss you.
Oh Barb, I'm so sorry. I can imagine how disappointed you are. We'll keep praying for you and your family.
When Ben took the California bar the first time and didn't pass, I was crushed. 3.5 years of law school, trying to sell a house, planning on moving to CA - and then he doesn't pass. I was devastated for a few weeks.
But Ben - he was devestated for a few hours, and then he moved on, found a job, and studied again. It was awful, but I know you can do it too!! It will all work out and who knows - it may even be a blessing in disguise to have him home more and not starting medical school quite yet.
LOVES girl! I know trials and defeats bring sorts of blessings. I know that sounds corny, but so true! I promise! Still after a year and a half we are still putting the pieces together from the accident. I hope yours happens faster than that! I love you!
Sorry Love! :( GAH! I hate when life doesnt seem to get better, it only goes down and down. If you ever wanna go and drink margaritas... Im SO DOWN! Uhh... I mean that would be bad! Anywhoo... Look on the bright side, you have a SUPER cute picture on your blog! You guys look like friggin super models! I {heart} you... even if your an obama momma! ;) Call if you ever wanna hang out! Im a good listener!
You're right--this is pretty dark. It's good to give the Terribles a voice, then you can sweep them away when its over.
The new picture in your header tells me that you can count at least five blessings in your life--you're here as well as David, and those three darling children. I agree with Mama J--you all look like super models.
Hope today's better.
love you!
Hey Barb I don't have anything to say that will make you feel better except that maybe this is just God's plan for you and your family. We don't know why David didn't get into school this year, but it has got to be a blessing in disguise. I love your family picture. Tell Dave to work on his smile though, k?! I love you guys! I'm sorry you are going through a rough time. Hang in there woman!
We're still praying for you.. and p.s. I lovee your family picture ;)
Love that picture! You did a great job coordinating the outfits. Not a big surprise, though. I hope the chocolate cake helped!
I'm so sorry. But like your mother said, you do have 3 beautiful children and a wonderful husband. Just think 5 years from now when your lives took a different path you'll probably be thinking...thank goodness. I thought that a few times in my life when when I looked back upon situations where I just thought I'd die because I didn't have something a certain way but it didn't happen.
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